“I’d rather it be like, ‘You’re an asshole,’ or, ‘I hate you, and you did this to mom,’ or something,” Jon continued. “I have nothing. It’s like I have no closure.”

Meanwhile, Collin also hasn’t been in contact with the rest of the Gosselin brood—including siblings Mady and Cara as well as fellow sextuplets Alexis, Aaden, Leah and Joel—in years, with the exception of Hannah.

Collin’s theory on why there is a rift among the kids? “I think my mom kind of drove a social barrier between us,” he shared in the documentary. “She told them the story one way, and, obviously, I see the story a different way.”

But when it comes to possibly reconciling with his siblings in future years, Collin is all for it.

“I really, really hope one day that we can all reconnect and put the show behind us and just be siblings again,” the 19-year-old continued, “and take back that time we didn’t have.”